I think it's important for you to understand I'm just a simple woman who happened to have been given an extraordinary task!! So I'll begin introducing my family to you....starting, of course, with ME. ................. I've been happily married to the same man since December 23, 1975. My husband, Jim, and I had three daughters who grew up and gave us nine (yes, NINE) grandchildren.....five girls and four boys......who you'll get to know later.....if you decide you want to, that is.... ummmmmmm.......I came from a large family....four sisters and five brothers....I'd have to stop and do some serious counting to tell you how many nieces and nephews I have!!!! ......I love my God above all and my family next!! I appreciate more than ever the wonderful friends I've met along life's way.. FINALLY.......all I really want out of life now is to find God's perfect will for me and JUST DO IT!! I never planned to be a Mom again....this is just the way it turned out........My daughter needed help, seeing she had two older children and Jimma was truly a 24/7 baby.... Iam now trying desperately to find God's perfect will in my life....my life MUST count for HIM!!.....sooo. I stumble along...trying to find where it is my feet will take me now............. ok...enough for now, I think.......
I'M SORRY, BABY...
Posted by Kathryn Hall Cape on Thursday, January 5, 2012
Under: thankful
Posted by Kathryn Hall Cape on Wednesday, January 12, 2011
I'm so ashamed of myself, Jimma! I haven't had the strength during this last holiday season to post the entries I had planned....I really thought that, somehow, it would get..easier???....Or that I would have grown stronger...or wiser. But, sad to say, darling...that's not the case with Mommy! I worked so hard the entire season...decorating...cleaning.....shopping...
Everywhere I went...I saw things you'd enjoy....toys....clothes..... The lights were so pretty..but I didn't sit long enough to really look at them. I snapped pictures....and kept going...until Christmas came and went. ...without you, my darling angel..again.....
You...Jimma.....are always in my thoughts...I still catch myself thinking you're in the next room..waiting for Mommy to hold you....ready with arms out-stretched as you watch me come into the room...ready with more kisses..more hugs...more demonstrations of your perfect love
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Whatever problems may have clouded my day.. even the never-ending pain in my worn, tired body...would fade away, as our eyes met and our hearts connect...again... and there is only your love....flooding my space .. filling my soul with peace .. as I thank Jesus .. again .. for my precious baby girl...
Your smell....your touch....your smile...the weight of you pressing against me as you nuzzle against my bosom...your blue eyes shining bright with contentment.....
Maybe someday....wisdom will come....maybe someday life will feel complete again..maybe ... someday...
But for now?? ......the pain of missing you....the ever-looming emptiness of my arms...the longing ache...the yearning to hold you again....is tooo big for me....the mountain???..too high...too wide....my heart is drowning in the ocean of my unrelenting tears...........
I'm soo sorry, baby....that I'm not strong... You deserve so much better than me....your memory deserves so much more than I have strength to give....but.., maybe ..some day??????
I'm so ashamed of myself, Jimma! I haven't had the strength during this last holiday season to post the entries I had planned....I really thought that, somehow, it would get..easier???....Or that I would have grown stronger...or wiser. But, sad to say, darling...that's not the case with Mommy! I worked so hard the entire season...decorating...cleaning.....shopping...
Everywhere I went...I saw things you'd enjoy....toys....clothes..... The lights were so pretty..but I didn't sit long enough to really look at them. I snapped pictures....and kept going...until Christmas came and went. ...without you, my darling angel..again.....
You...Jimma.....are always in my thoughts...I still catch myself thinking you're in the next room..waiting for Mommy to hold you....ready with arms out-stretched as you watch me come into the room...ready with more kisses..more hugs...more demonstrations of your perfect love
.
Whatever problems may have clouded my day.. even the never-ending pain in my worn, tired body...would fade away, as our eyes met and our hearts connect...again... and there is only your love....flooding my space .. filling my soul with peace .. as I thank Jesus .. again .. for my precious baby girl...
Your smell....your touch....your smile...the weight of you pressing against me as you nuzzle against my bosom...your blue eyes shining bright with contentment.....
Maybe someday....wisdom will come....maybe someday life will feel complete again..maybe ... someday...
But for now?? ......the pain of missing you....the ever-looming emptiness of my arms...the longing ache...the yearning to hold you again....is tooo big for me....the mountain???..too high...too wide....my heart is drowning in the ocean of my unrelenting tears...........
I'm soo sorry, baby....that I'm not strong... You deserve so much better than me....your memory deserves so much more than I have strength to give....but.., maybe ..some day??????
In : thankful
