Posted by Kathryn Hall Cape on Tuesday, March 8, 2011
A DREAM..Saturday, Feb. 19, 2011
I was having much trouble sleeping..due to pain, both mentally and physically. Finally, about six o’clock, I fell asleep….and dreamed…
I was in a strange place….hilly…with strangers surrounding me…languages were being spoken that I couldn’t understand. Someone told me that my Jimma had died and had been buried somewhere amid the hills. I began feverishly searching…..I came to myself digging in...
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Posted by Kathryn Hall Cape on Sunday, January 30, 2011
Just a little talk with my angel before I go to sleep….
Posted on August 15, 2010 by kcape
Jimma…I just wanna talk to you for a little while..k? babygirl……Your picture…remember the one we took just before I climbed into bed beside you and settled down for the night?…You were already settled in, wrapped up in your very own o-so-soft blankie..the blue one..and I said, OK, sweetie, just one picture of my sweet babygirl b...
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Posted on July 13, 2010 by kcape
On June 16, 2002 our seventh grandchild was born. She was such a special child….not because she was born with a rare metabolic disorder called 3 methylglutaconic aciduria type IV….not because her disabilities caused her to be unable to walk….not even because she lived seven wonderful years when her doctors didn’t expect her to live at all. Jimma was special in a way that we all should strive to be.. You see……Jimma gave and received love without con...
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Posted on July 10, 2010 by kcape
Hi, well here I am!! At age 53….trying to find myself! I’ve led a fairly eventful life…going from one episode to another…as most folks do. We married young, my husband and I, we were only 18. We started our family after only eleven months and it has since been on…as they say. Until June 16, 2002 our lives were fairly normal. We became grandparents at age 39……the first six seemed to come in rapid succession..healthy..robust little rascalsâ...
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Posted by Kathryn Hall Cape on Wednesday, January 12, 2011
I'm so ashamed of myself, Jimma! I haven't had the strength during this last holiday season to post the entries I had planned....I really thought that, somehow, it would get..easier???....Or that I would have grown stronger...or wiser. But, sad to say, darling...that's not the case with Mommy! I worked so hard the entire season...decorating...cleaning.....shopping...

Everywhere I went...I saw things you'd enjoy....toys....clot...
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Posted by Kathryn Hall Cape on Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Sweet Jimma, I just have the need..again...to talk to you. I've been sharing what happened with some new friends....on a site called Inspire. I was really surprized at the response I got when I started talking about you! But maybe I shouldn't have been, huh? ....anybody who ever met you fell in love with you.......that's not gonna end just because you're not here with me anymore, is it? It's about 3:30 in the morning....we saw ...
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Posted by Kathryn Hall Cape on Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Sweet Jimma, I just have the need..again...to talk to you. I've been sharing what happened with some new friends....on a site called Inspire. I was really surprized at the response I got when I started talking about you! But maybe I shouldn't have been, huh? ....anybody who ever met you fell in love with you.......that's not gonna end just because you're not here with me anymore, is it? It's about 3:30 in the morning....we saw this ti...
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Posted by Kathryn Hall Cape on Monday, September 20, 2010 Under: tackling grief

This is the day I've been dreading!!! .....a year has passed since my Jimma went Home.... Time has taken on a different meaning for me in this last year... It's like forever .........

I've been almost sick at the thought of a year marking Jimma's passing....it has felt almost like a betrayal....like I was walking away from her....somehow.... I can't really explain it right now...I don't have enough unders...
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Posted by Kathryn Hall Cape on Friday, August 20, 2010
Today marks the eleventh month since that fateful day....that day I wish I could erase from my memory....O that time could have ceased!!!! ....or that it was a horrible dream......YES....maybe it is a dream...a horrible dream.....

I'm gonna wake up now....I open my eyes.... and find my little curly-haired girl next to me...I see her working to get a hold on my hair...she loved to surprize me awake by tugging on my hair when she woke before...
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Posted by Kathryn Hall Cape on Wednesday, July 7, 2010
I had an appointment to go to Duke University Hospital to see an eye doctor. They say I need another surgery..and possibly a cornea transplant. That news wasn't the hard part of the trip! You see, Jimma had to make regular trips there to see her metabolic doctor (Dr. Koeberl) .... Everything about the trip brought a flood of memories....It seems that every turn we made I could see the ghosts of the past. I remember, when Jimma got older, ...
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Posted by Kathryn Hall Cape on Thursday, June 17, 2010
Yesterday was Jimma's birthday....I had planned to have a party with her brother, sister, cousins, aunts and uncles...But....I am weak...I just couldn't find the strength. O how miss my angel...her beautiful smiling face...her always ready kisses. And although it was so very hard for her to raise her arms for a hug...o how hard she would work to get her little hands over my shoulders. ....she'd say 'huggg'.....making the 'g' sou...
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Posted by Kathryn Hall Cape on Friday, June 11, 2010
My Jimma's birthday is coming up............Just one year ago we were excitedly looking forward to her turning seven! I was going over her wish list with her and gathering gifts.......just one year ago my baby was in my arms......my heart is breaking into tiny fragments.....my arms are aching to hold her.....I can still feel her touch and smell the essence of her.....even after over eight months, I have not found the way to live without her...
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Having just experienced the loss of my dear baby, I'm just trying to find my way. The only thing I know to do just now is to write....and pray that it takes me to the place where Jesus will be pleased with me. I invite you to take this journey with me. My intent is to reach out to help others.....to lend a helping hand....to try to find the words that will help others who happen to find themselves on this terrible road of grief....this lonesome, agonizing and pain-filled...o-so-lonely road th...
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